Firstly I would like to thank everyone for you're fabulous support, and to say I'm sorry that I've been so absent. Time is very precious at the moment, I'm able to quickly pop images on to IG, but very little else.
Despite what the medics said, Mum is still with us, five weeks on, doing what she does best, being a mum and being determined to live! That determination to stay with us has been amazing, but it's also painful to watch.
We've all been spending as much time as we possibly can with her. Some family and friends have come to say goodbye, not wishing to see her towards the end. I can completely empathise with that decision. It's heartbreaking to see someone you love so much, decline in front of your eyes.
The last few weeks have been bittersweet. There have been tremendously sad times, where you feel like your own heart will stop, you can't take anymore. Then there are the most beautiful, inspiring moments, when you know there is so much love, your heart with burst.
We have been blessed with moments of real clarity, where mum knows exactly who we are, and she knows exactly how much she loves us. This really is a gift, especially when your parent has Alzheimer's, and these bits of information have been missing.
So many precious moments, in a time that is so incredibly hard.
And we did go to Cornwall....it was a beautiful week, and whilst I so wanted to be by mums side, I knew she would insist I spend time with my girls. I will share our holiday at some point, record those moments.
It's been incredible important for me to finish my Mothers Love blanket, which I did, and took it to show mum. I described all the colours and popped it under her hand.
And so we take one moment at a time. Each moment is precious and heart wrenching in equal measure. The balance is tipping, the sand is running out but we know Our Mum.....she's full of surprises, never quite doing what people expect of her. We could be a while yet....
Much love,
Ada :) xxx
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ReplyDeleteThinking of you Ada ... Bee xxx
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ReplyDeleteHello Ada,
ReplyDeleteThinking of your Mum, You and your Family as this sad time.
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Thinking of you - it is a very sad time I do know
ReplyDeleteBig hugs
Julie xxxxxxxx
I shall think of you all when I'm out running. Dementia is so cruel. Much love, Susie x
ReplyDeleteYour blanket is beautiful, I am certain that the love that went into it is seeping out to surround your Mum.
ReplyDeleteMemories are precious, love is a gift, this is the most intimate and personal time of your life. Bless you all. Xx
ReplyDeleteDearest Ada - Big hugs going out to you & your family <3
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My thoughts are with you dear Ada!!! Hugs and xxx!!!
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AMarie xxx
The blanket is stunning and my heart goes out to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteBig hugs,
Birgitta xx
Thinking of you, much love xxx
ReplyDeleteThinking of you all.
ReplyDeleteHelenxx
I have thought of you so often and wondered how things were going for you and your Mum. I am glad that you are having time together when you can, and that you went on your holiday. I am sure that your Mum would approve of that. The time that you have is precious and I know that you will make the most of it and enjoy those times of clarity as and when they come. Keep on taking care of yourself and your Mum and I will keep on thinking of you and sending good thoughts and love your way. xx
ReplyDeleteMy heart went out to you reading this Ada. Such a beautiful blanket and story behind it too. x
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ReplyDeleteSending hugs and I'll be thinking of you x
ReplyDeleteKindness & love to you both.
ReplyDeleteKnow from experience what's like to have a mother with Alzheimer.
ReplyDeleteAt times it's heartbreaking.
Sending you much love...xxx
ReplyDeleteThinking of you. Jacqui x
ReplyDeleteGod bless you and your family and your mum xx
ReplyDeleteYou have been so blessed to have those moments of clarity, made me take a deep breathe to read that. Love to you all X
ReplyDeleteDear, dear Ada, how I am feeling for you and relating to what you are going through. Enjoy the special time and hold fast in the hard times. Hugs. Lxxxx
ReplyDeleteIt's a special gift to have such a loving mother. How wonderful that you've had more time than you ever expected. We were blessed with a few extra months with my own mother ... yes, bittersweet. Big hugs to you Ada. It's a lovely photo of the blanket with your mother's precious hand resting on it. What a beautiful gift. Take care, Wendy xox
ReplyDeletehugs and love, xxxxxx Ale
ReplyDeleteMy heart is brimming over for you...what a love filled post.
ReplyDeleteHugs, Pat
Oh darling girl. I would sit holding my mother's hand for hours because I knew I would miss her so much. I was there with my oldest child when she passed. It is such an honor to be with the dying. So much to learn. Give her a kiss, give her permission when you are ready. Xxxooo e
ReplyDeleteI've just been catching up. I'm sorry to read about your Mum. What a brave strong lady.
ReplyDeleteBest wishes. x
Thinking of you and your family, Ada. Take care x
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ReplyDeleteBig huge virtual hugs to you Ada and to your lovely Mum. My Grandad had that horrid illness and I still feel slightly bitter that it stole his mind and memories away from him so soon :-( Take care of yourself xxxx
ReplyDeleteHugs. Enjoy all the time you can with her. I know how you feel. My dad has dimentia and doesn't even know me anymore. He is still young in his early 60's when it came on and
ReplyDeletedoesn't truly get to enjoy retirement after working so hard all his life. Stay strong.
A brave and gutsy mother and daughter team ... you are all an inspiration. Still thinking of you and your family m'dear x
ReplyDeleteThinking of you Ada and sending much love to you all xxx
ReplyDeleteI know that I already commented, but you popped into my mind and I wanted to tell you that I was thinking of you. xx
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