Firstly I would like to thank everyone for you're fabulous support, and to say I'm sorry that I've been so absent. Time is very precious at the moment, I'm able to quickly pop images on to IG, but very little else.
Despite what the medics said, Mum is still with us, five weeks on, doing what she does best, being a mum and being determined to live! That determination to stay with us has been amazing, but it's also painful to watch.
We've all been spending as much time as we possibly can with her. Some family and friends have come to say goodbye, not wishing to see her towards the end. I can completely empathise with that decision. It's heartbreaking to see someone you love so much, decline in front of your eyes.
The last few weeks have been bittersweet. There have been tremendously sad times, where you feel like your own heart will stop, you can't take anymore. Then there are the most beautiful, inspiring moments, when you know there is so much love, your heart with burst.
We have been blessed with moments of real clarity, where mum knows exactly who we are, and she knows exactly how much she loves us. This really is a gift, especially when your parent has Alzheimer's, and these bits of information have been missing.
So many precious moments, in a time that is so incredibly hard.
And we did go to Cornwall....it was a beautiful week, and whilst I so wanted to be by mums side, I knew she would insist I spend time with my girls. I will share our holiday at some point, record those moments.
It's been incredible important for me to finish my Mothers Love blanket, which I did, and took it to show mum. I described all the colours and popped it under her hand.
And so we take one moment at a time. Each moment is precious and heart wrenching in equal measure. The balance is tipping, the sand is running out but we know Our Mum.....she's full of surprises, never quite doing what people expect of her. We could be a while yet....
Ada :) xxx