Sorry for my absence this week, I've only just got around to answering your comments on my last post. It's been a difficult week, lots of past emotions have risen there heads again, and quite frankly, surprised me by how they have taken me over. Sometimes you think you've dealt with stuff don't you, only to realise you've just buried them, and not too deeply at that.
I've a plan of action, and I know what I need to do, but I also know it's going to be a rocky few months ahead. I've decided to take on The Giant. It's essential if I want to get back some of the self worth I've lost.
A few years ago, a big, powerful organisation made me feel worthless, it's time they knew how they made me feel. Maybe then I can regain some self respect, in this area of my life anyway. It could become a legal matter, so I can't say too much here.
So this week, there's been lots of tears, feelings of rejection, worthlessness. Feelings of injustice, and boy, are they strong! Knowing, that if I had been treated fairly a few years ago, then my life, and that of my family, would have been so much better.
I've felt exhausted by it all, yesterday I spent the day resting. Today will be more rest, and crochet. I've taken the first step, got the ball rolling, so to speak. I really need to pace myself on this one, fighting Giants can be hard work...wish me luck and strength. (Oh and the will to edit holiday photos!).
Amanda :) xxx