Life has taken on some new routines since September. Both girls now go to the same secondary school. This means I don't need to get up so early as their Dad drops them off, on his way to work.
So after they've gone, I can get myself ready...do any bits I need to do around the house, then wander down to my studio. It's a lovely, gentle routine. Don't get me wrong, there's the normal, teenage angst first thing, mainly revolving around hair and brows. But then there's quiet.
It's at the pace I need. I've vowed to myself before I went away, to only ever have three things on my To Do list, anymore than this causes me too much stress. Very different to how things used to be, I think I've always been a stress junkie, seeking out challenges over and above what was good for me. Taking on extra responsibilities, supporting those who were very vulnerable, and absorbing their stress too.
Of course, at the time I didn't realise what an impact this was having on me. Sometimes it takes a drastic change in our health, to understand what's happening in our lives. Would I have done anything differently, I like to think I would, but in reality I think things would probably have been the same.
Now, as soon as I feel any stress, my body reacts immediately. It's almost as if someone has injected me with a poison, that's the only way to describe it. Poison, felt instantly, causing me to shut down, physically and emotionally. I suppose it's my body trying to protect itself.
No ones life is completely stress free, well I don't think so. I have my fair share of stresses, it's not all roses. So I try and build in 'stress free' moments throughout my day. Crochet and craft. Meditation. Eating well. Gentle excersise...keeping my body moving. Time in my studio. Time in my garden. All helps.
So, if you are feeling under a lot of stress, try to find some way to release some of this pressure. Create a new routine if you can, put yourself first, even if it's only for a few minutes each day. Take care of yourself, there's only you who can really do this. Don't let your body down.
Right, a few more rows of crochet has been prescribed, by me...for me!
Amanda :) xxx
Stress free cat.